changed my mind...

the new ltj album has some amazing lyrics just keep jumping out and smacking me in the brain. my current fave is "hopeless case":

I have this feeling inside that i wouldn't like me if i met me. it seems like a losing fight, if you can see thru my eyes then you'd believe me. the truth is that i'm overrated, I can't think straight I'm formulaic, the truth is that it's sad to say it, but you can't help me. you don't see me that way, you hear the words that i say, you just tell me that my heart's in the right place, it's the world that's confused and it's never too late to save a hopeless case i've always known a ghost like me, can disappear in a moment, i'm my own worst casualty, everything i touch can get broken, the truth is that i'm self-destructive, i'm insecure, i'm out of focus, the truth is that i've had enough but you still help me. you don't see me that way, you hear the words that i say, you just tell me that my heart's in the right place, it's the world that's confused and it's never too late to save a hopeless case. you're giving me perspective, it's better than mine, and i'll still be defective and you're wasting your time.

powerful and beautiful don't you think? i have found that while i'm not impressed with the catchiness of the music (ltj usually has me dancing in the aisles) the lyrics are far more mature and meaningful than usual (i have a word fetish; i can't help it).

on a different *note*, have you ever heard the ben fold's version of "tiny dancer?" i am quite in love with it.

my observation went well today, thanks for asking. my professor is impressed with the beautiful classroom i'm in, as i am . my teacher (the one i'm working with) is probably one of my favorite people in this world and that's a pretty powerful statement considering i've known her all of 8 days. she is the most unique, strongest and unabashidly (is that a word? poetic justice) nonconformist person i've ever known, and she's 63. she could give a shit what anyone else says or does or thinks, and just knows that when her gut says something, its the way it has to be. she has been around the block, lived in greece for years, in paris for some, has 2 grown up sons, was a high fashion model, has been divorced and still in a 25 year relationship with a different guy, and went back to get her degree at 59! her experience makes her unflappable, and i truly hope that i am in contact with her forever. i feel like i get strength from her. have you ever felt like that? like when you're with a certain person, or have them backing you, you're invicible? i used to feel like if christina and i were in h.s. together, we could conquer it without being self-conscious or insecure---we'd always have the back up of each other. well, anyway, this is a different more grown up feeling, a more professional/career feeling. i would love to have her as my mentor, because i know that while i've learned a lot about her in the classroom, i'd truly grow with her as a person.
she kicks all sorts of ass!