seriously

i just spent 1/2 hour trying to change my goddamn picture on this shitty site. why does the picture have to be such a small, crappy resolution in order for it to fit on here? something is not right.
so many sad things going on. my sister's best friend since she was 3's mother is very sick, and her hospice said that she prob. won't make it the next few days. i babysat for them every new year's eve, and they were like family. i just cannot stop crying.
a good friend of my brother in law (and much of port chester) died a couple of days ago in a motorcycle accident. everything is just very morose and terrible. i cannot imagine how these people feel and what their going thru, but i hope that they can carry on. i think there is going to be a benefit show for adam sometime in the next few weeks, so i'll keep everyone posted...
just trudging along w/my life. juliet breaks my heart every single morning, when i drop her of and she cries and cries and holds on to me. 'mommy i hold you!' it is the hardest thing in the world just leaving her. however, as a teacher i know that minutes after i leave she's fine. i've been on the other side of it...i know the drill. it doesn't make it ANY easier. my day starts off w/a poision in my stomach (i am actually listening to soul asylum's 'summer of the drugs' right this second and my old lover dave pirner just said 'i started out my teenage years w/a poison in my mouth...' so i really stole his words. god i used to love soul asylum!) a funny thing that that crazy jules does now is when she sings her abcs, she ends by saying, 'now i know my abcs, NOCHA NOCHA sing with me..." i laugh and laugh, and cannot bring myself to correct her. and sometimes she says, 'a b c d e f daddy...' ahahahahhaha she is crazy!
yay andy is home from school!!!