time keeps on slipping, slipping, slipping...

seriously now, i feel like i'm going insane. i don't have time to do ANYTHING. i worked all weekend which was fucking stupid of me. saturday i did a make-up cuz i took off friday (a make-up that i forgot absolutely about and nearly slept through) and today i babysat and didn't get home til after 4. i've been working my balls off making my father's 50th birthday present which includes searching for photos and scanning them and then putting them in this photobook which will eventually be a 12x12 hardcover glossy paged gift of love. i spent 2 hours working on the book last night and the computer froze and i lost EVERYTHING.
juliet is no longer in school which makes life that much harder and makes me feel so guilty for working. i cry at each kid's house. i think, what the fuck am i doing with this child while my child needs me? i'm desperate to find her a new place to go, but when the hell do i do that? my last day of school is on tuesday, and this guy STILL hasn't signed the necessary papers for me to graduate. which means, of course, that despite the fact that i worked my ass off and have a 4.0gpa, i'm not graduating. i feel like crying about 99% of the time.
i got all our xmas shopping done, which rocks. but is something i enjoy. i just don't get why people have trouble and stress around the holidays. i mean, i'm stressing, but because of work and juliet and life in general. nothing about christmas. i feel that people generally suck and that is the problem. speaking of which, i was watching this show on hbo, thin, about these bulemic girls and i pretty much wanted to stab them. i really did. they were pretty much the worst. they were like, crying and saying, "i just want to be thin. let me die." OfuckingKay. go ahead asshole. anywho. i am going to see rent. for the 3rd time. in january. and andy is escorting me...i'm so excited. i am not prepared for work tomorrow. i have to get up and get me and juliet ready and get andy to the trainstation and juliet to elenor's and be in rye by 8. how am i going to do it?