heavy hearts

i haven't felt this deeply weirdly sad since i was in college. it sucks to take for granted your husband lying in bed next to you every night, and when the daunting fact that tonight he will be sharing a bed with some men and my too big for us anyway king size bed will seem 4x as big hits home, i admit it, i cry a little. but i'm not ashamed. cuz i cried when lakisha got voted off american idol last night. off to work. maybe my mind will be too busy...