what time are we upon and where do i belong?

and much like my birthday 9 years ago, i'm celebrating the dawn of a new year with tears and sobs. going from 19 to 20 was really hard for me for some unknown illogical reason, and i cried my balls off. and becky and i got drunk and walked around the dark streets of port chester, drinking beer and smoking ciggarettes. i got over it, you know, moved on with my life (looking back, that 20 was a weird year after all. but i digress). so i'm on like, searching high and low for cheap tickets to see spring awakening cuz i fucked up and didn't buy them yet and the last day they'd be cheap was today, going to all of my discount broadway sites, when the phone rings. it's old andy. "happy birthday babe" he says...and i burst into tears. i didn't realize what time it was. or how old i was. and 29 is a sucky year. it is old and dreadful, but not as famous as say, 30. for 30 you can have a party (or 2) (maybe involving certain sacred theme parks)(or a dj-rich danceathon). it's just that year long wait, anticipation, of turning that new corner in your life. but i was rewarded with my presents. which are TICKETS TO GO SEE POISON AT JONES BEACH. yay. for those of you who are not aware of this (i.e. didn't know my in 5th grade up into at least 9th grade...)poison was my all time favorite group (talk dirty to me being my all time favorite song)(and c.c. is my all time favorite guitar player) and you'll know (at least now)that i am so dressing like 1987 white trash groupie all the way for this show! the seats are decent, section d, row w (i'll have to do more research)but i'm sooooooo stoked. i love my cc! i love my boys! plus they're opening acts are none other than RATT and Whiie Lion! (we've seen ratt before several times i think. so no biggie, but remember white lion! hahaha.okay i'm totally babbling now and i'm exhausted and i'm so motherfucking old that i cringe. i need to check on juliet jamesowitch, put on something tasty to fall asleep to (swing kids or batman begins)(i'm sure if i see an iota of adult swim i'll burst into even further tears).
on the opposite side of this rambling, i had a great mother's day! my father in law cooked me breakfast. i got excellent gifts. i spend the most relaxing and beautiful day on the island with my family. it was heaven. i'll try and get some pix up here soon.
countdown to VIVA NEW YORK is officialy on.