do you remember...

that game "don't spill the beans" from when you were a kid? where you stack up beans into a red pot of some sort but if you put too much KERPLUNK! well, that's how i feel...i feel like if one more thing gets added to my brain, one more stressful, awful, evil thing, my brain is going to just explode...yet it seems like daily there is another bean added...i'm wondering what it is going to take to make me freak. do you know that my last paycheck was in december? do you know what it's been like struggling to pay our bills like were were poor, jobless souls all the while working your ass off and having bruises and scratches all over your body to prove it not to mention coming home at 9pm utterly exhausted, both physically and emotionally? it's really really bad. do you have any idea how STRESSFUL buying a house is? ( i know some of you do, and kudos because it's the most stress i've ever dealt with...)

but it's spring! that's awesome...and i have 5 hours of intense, challenging work ahead of me, what where kids that are as big as me might beat the living crap out of me, but then i'm offffffffffffffffffff for 5 days in a rooooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwww!!!!