judge not...

who is able to truly say that they are not judgemental? i doubt anyone can really look into their soul and not feel one way or another about a situation or person or whathaveyou.

but when is it ok--truly justifiable--to judge aloud. like, let your particular feelings be known. to me, i say shut your fucking mouth.

case in point...
my daughter. she's hyper, she's unfocused, she floats all over the place. we know that. she's not hurting anyone. she's annoying you, maybe, but unless you are her teacher or a classmate directly harmed by her talking out of turn, shut the fuck up. especially members of our family. she is NOT docile, she never WAS docile and she never WILL be docile. no one is going to rub off on her no matter how long they hang out together. accept her. and if you are too impatient to love her for who she is, stay away. because as a mother of a child with adhd, NOTHING is more frustrating than YOU getting frustrated with her--for what? running around? making a mess while eating? in a NON-SCHOOL related setting?--and telling me she should lay off the sugar. she doesn't even consume sugar. and i'm pretty sure that the sugar thing is an old-wives tale. she is what she is. and while most people who "love" her love her for all of her flaws, those who don't just suck as people. and i hope YOU get to deal with an imperfect child and see how the judging eyes and nasty comments feel.

time to play catch up?

an amazingly large amount of things have happened since i last wrote on this here blog, in the world as a whole as well as in my world.
 i have spent some time reading past blogs, and i am so happy that i didn't decide in a spur of the moment to delete it like i did my youtube. it has served as a phenomenal diary and it has been very interesting to read back on the past years. there were some very painful times represented in this blog, very dark times that are a very gargantuan reason why it's taken me 3 years to even look at this site. a year after working at my classroom, (a year after i stopped writing) i was diagnosed as having an anxiety disorder and slight depression. it SCREAMS obvious, at least to me, and while i am currently unmedicated (breastfeeding) and therefore slightly crazy, i am in such a better place. i was having anxiety attacks  in grocery stores, not going out to parties and events that i should have been attending, and it was taking its toll on not only me, but really andy and JULIET. so i did something about it. and i am so happy i did. that is a huge change. what else has happened?
here's some things:
*i had a baby (scarlet judith. she's almost 3 months old!)
*andy lost his shit job at storage deluxe which means
*we lost our apartment so
*we moved to port chester but
*andy got an AMAZING job doing computer nerd shizz and he is BRILLIANTLY HAPPY
*in the world of echo station, jen and steve had a 2nd baby, a girl, and mike and amy had a lil' boy. while that is all gravy in creating the next generation of our echo family,
*joebags died in february 2011. it was totally devastating and really rocked our world. he was still living in costa rica, and was happily married and most heartbreakingly of all expecting a baby in september. it's horrible.


as far as the whole wide world, here are some things that stick out from my reading of this here blog:
*michael jackson died, and it was a far bigger deal than when anna nicole smith died.
*no one has myspace anymore. it is all about the facebook (which i will commonly refer to as spacejam or spacebook)

however, somethings have remained steadfastly same. for instance:
*juliet is still juliet. which is to say actually diagnosed adhd. still having a hard time in school, still impulsive, still wonderous.
*i'm still a psycho especially when people write things on the interwebs that involve me no matter how indirectly.

Ooooh yea baby!

Test

Yea I can blog from my iPhone!

wow

i haven't written on here in YEARS. isn't that wild?

so much has changed.

which i, of course, cannot document right now.

still in jams. have to get jules in 20 mins. baby asleep. yiiikes!

i promise things HAVE changed.

i just can't prove it yet.

guess who's back...back again...jaded's back...tell a friend...

(title to be sung to the eminem song which may or may not be titled "shady's back.")


i discovered a new blog yesterday entitled The Bloggess. which may or may not be pronounced so that it rhymes with Goddess. right? some random person that i'm friends with on facejam shared her latest post and i read it and i swear i peed myself. and i fell in love.


because i tend to do that. fall in love with writers. they are like rockstars to your brain. i have literary crushes on ppl from bret easton ellis to francesca lia block all the way back around to my latest love, joe hill. 


i fell in such literary love with this blog and it's writer that i spent most of my night reading up on her past blogs, her other projects and her sex column. which is hilarious. and also stalking around for more info about her. turns out she has many cats AND insomnia AND a daughter juliet's age. we are obviously soul mates.


i love her style of writing so much- it's madness, it's comedy, it's satire, it's NOT SERIOUSNESS- that i have been INSPIRED to get my ass back on here and WRITE AGAIN. 


but i can't write now. because i have to pick jules up at school in a few and i'm in my pjs and i have to wake the baby up and get her ready and because the fucking mouse of this fucking computer is sticking and NOT working like a mouse should which is making me insane and because the cats are seriously annoying me and stepping on the keyboard and trying to write a post of their own. which might say "i would greatly appreciate being let out of this room. k thx bai." so i  PROMISE to write later.