I'm nothing but a jealous whore.

Ugh I swear that I am the devil today. I am pms-ing like a mofo, and I'm ugly inside and out. 


Andy is doing Godspell tonight. He has been at practice for 5 nights straight...wait, no, more than that...while I've been home and up with a sick and screaming baby. But that's not what has me so pissy...it's that this play, which was performed 15 years ago, is what BROKE US UP!! 


To me, because I am totally irrational, I'm all "WHY would you want to do this shit again?" 


To him, he thinks he IS Christ incarnate. No, no, no, just me being evil. 


I am FURIOUS that I'm not in it...first, because it would prove to the 18 year old inside of me that WE AREN'T GOING TO BREAK UP AGAIN and also, because I AM THE ONE WHO NEEDS TO BE ON STAGE!! Sigh. When I asked if I could be in it, he said "No, only past performers of Godspell." Then last night I read the playbill... 


Oh, HELL no! So many people are in it for the first time! So many wives/husbands are in it for the first time! Oh, NOOO you didn't! 


So I'm so not looking forward to this. Because I have to stop being 7 years old and suck it up and be a supportive and grown up wife. And while that's hard enough, it's even WORSE when you are PMSING LIKE A MOFO!!!


And ugly inside and out.


Ugh, to go put on makeup. 

***UPDATE***1/30/12
I did NOT hate the show as I expected...it was amazing. I have totally come to terms with and am over the anger and rage I had at age 18, which is awesome. It is nice to have closure once in awhile.